I know I'm scared, I'm a little unprepared, and I hope luck is on my side

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so
it's Wednesday
i'm tired already
stupid school
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but i can't really say that
you have NO idea how much i was looking forward to going back
"a strange, neverending magnetism...."
...and i just quoted myself
how sad
and i lost my notebook!
the one i write in at school when im bored
or have one of those random emotion-filled waves that hit me every once in a while/every night at about 10:15 when im sitting up going "damn, im too tired to read and leanne's already yelled for me to turn my stereo down 3 times already what to do *insert random quote here* oh that'd make an awesome song title" and i spend another half-hour writing whatever pops into my head and somehow at least 2/3 of it ends up pure emo BS but i dont care because i wanted to write it.
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and
i just found it
it was in that one pile next to the computer desk
silly me XP
oh well
*phew*

know what else ive been doing today?
thinking of my stupid scheldual (i dont care how its spelled, tori) for next year.
and i think i wanna drop health so i can take German next year
cause i can
and i dont think i wanna get rid of my study hall
study hall is awesome
and i think we have band study hall available again next year
which would just be awesome.
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GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
effin college
fuck it
i dont want it
i just dont
i love highschool
im finally starting to like some of the people in my grade
WHY MUST YOU RUIN THAT FOR ME?
*sigh*
whatever
im also not looking forward to getting all my requirements, either
i dont think ive put it in here before, but im thinking UW Madison
http://www.admissions.wisc.edu/freshman/requirements.php
an 1830?!?!?!?
just to be out of the bottom 25%?
thats just fucking insane
my score is something like a 1700 or 1770
i just checked, its 1770
i guess its a good start
i have a few years to get that up
i guess im set
for everything except the whole class rank shit
you know what?
my grades arent amazing
and i can deal with that
but seriously
fucking my college chances?
what if i have a shitload of really smart kids in my grade?
that isnt cool, college
not cool at all.
but i saw that UWM is actually easier than madison
by a long shot
only because of the whole 2 years of a language
and whatever
but as of next year
if i take spanish 3, i think its an honors class
so thats good
im not gonna bitch about anything thats bringing my GPA up
especially not a class thats as simple as spanish
i just own that class
you have no idea
i think last year i ended with a 104% or something
with something like a 121% on the final
pretty kick ass, if you ask me.

and i just realized why i hate the concept of college
i have almost no idea what i want to do with my life
i mean, you people are all probably sitting there going "theres no fucking way, everyone has SOME idea on that"
well, i guess i do
but im so horrible at decisions
it sucks, but its true

ohh
im so tired
you wouldnt believe
its kinda like my subconscious is just writing whatever the hell it wants
how sad, eh?
oh well
maybe ill get desert
i deserve it
i hate tatertot casserole
>.<
well, i have a shower to do
and other stuff
(such as fuck with leanne's computer)
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so
bye!

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"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

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A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?