This was no accident, it was a theruputic chain of events.

Hey
Happy belated Christmas
and all that shit.

sorry, yet again
for not posting in what may seem to be forever
I get sidetracked
Other stuff to do, you know?
for one, there's the extended family
oh god
you think your family's crazy?
meet mine
i dare you

we had christmas at my aunts house yesterday
way out in who-the-hell-knows where.
oh joy
i got a few things
nothing really amazing
$20, a few gift cards (wtf is with my rich aunt and having to give me gift cards to stores i loathe? last year it was abercrombie, this it was aeropostale. WHAT ABOUT HOT TOPIC? TO SCARED TO GO IN LIKE EVERYONE ELSE?)
...
sorry
i shouldnt be that mean
i mean, it was for $40
i could just let leanne use it
and have my mom pay me back.

but that brings up a question:
what's up with people and having to have a job that completely neglects their children?
i mean, she's one of the higher-ups for bank of america
but her daughter, my little cousin (she's here right now)
she's so clingy
i mean, she never sees her parents, ever
it seems to take a lot out of her.
i think she still sleeps in bed with them somenights
and shes 12!
i mean, normally at that age kids dont even want to be seen with their parents.
AND SHE SLEEPS IN THEIR BED!
whats wrong with people?
show your children some love
or they'll grow to resent you
A LOT

i have this friend at school
he talks a lot about how his family is rich, and how he gets to travel so much and how he has all this nice stuff
but he has this horrible temper!
he can get pissed over nothing
i was talking to him one night
and he said something to the extent of "my dad tries to understand what he doesnt know. He's not here enough to know about anything."
hearing stuff like that always catches me off-guard
theres almost a gag reflex
like, thats not possible.
but i guess it is
it just doesnt happen to me.

onnnnnnn the lighter side
i got Panic's "...Live In Chicago" cd for christmas
(i was actually there when my parents were buying most of my presents. not much was a surprise, unless you cound the billions of headphones i got. oh, and the runescape membership XD)
but seriously
it made me love their music all over again
in the most literal form of the word
ive always wanted to go to one of their concerts
or any concert for a band i like, for that matter
ive seen them on youtube
they look like so much fun
but the best part?
they always play a different version of the song
and it almost always ends up better than the original, in my mind.
also, i was listening through it straight
brendan tried to hit these really high notes (it was probably on Camisado) (it was on "you're a regular decorated emergenCY
OHMYGOD XD
that made my whole week
and i learned something else
i think Ryan (Ross) has a british accent, or something to that extent
i dont think ive ever actually heard him talk before
but i sort of went "who the fuck is talking? it doesnt sound like any of them!"
anyway
i seriously suggest you people listen to it
or ill borrow it to you
its that fucking awesome.

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"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Love is watching someone die...

First off, I appologize
for not posting in
forever? can i say it's been forever?
*sigh*
well
it's been at least a month
but a lot has happened
seriously, a LOT

okay
first
My concert's wednesday
I'm really looking forward to it
I mean, seriously
band concerts are the shit.
plus, I love it when theres random people you find there
its like a game XD
the orchestra concert was okay, i guess
but our orchestra sucks
dont get me wrong, i love music
just not when they play it.
but it'll be a little sad for ours.
i mean, losing first chair by half a point, its really depressing.
oh well
i still get to play picc a bunch
(stupid taylor, its my instrument first AND im better.)
did i mention i can get the full range without buzzing?
im really happy now!
our band is really fun this year too
i mean, theyre no match for last years band
by a long shot
but its still fun

bowling last night/this morning was fucking sweet.
i mean, i havent gone since last time
(for those of you who've read this for a wihle, i mentioned it one of my first posts back in february)
then we kept changing eachothers names
and warren started nonstop giggling
i think jessie ended up winning the most
oh well
thank god we didnt sled
it was horrible out
i mean, we have most of winter break
we can wait.

me and mel got into Loveless
we were told it was good
so we watched it over the phone together yesterday
but im farther than her now XD
its pretty cute
(i have the opening song, tell me if you want it)
i think some people reading this would like it
i mean, if youre into manga/anime (which is actually pretty awesome)
i started playing gaia again
i tried it a year or so ago
but i wasnt too into it
now that i know that my friends like it
i like it
my person's pretty kick ass
http://www.gaiaonline.com/profiles/?u=6628624&_gaia_t_=718
cool?
i know
I DO NOT HAVE A PROBLEM/ADDICTION.
SHUT UP TYLER.

my daddy just got home from vegas today
i got a new sweater
its warm!
and he also got me new portable ipod speakers
that are the same as the ones i broke!
yay!
theyre decent quality.

i think we start swimming in gym soon
but its okay
I already have my excuses set.
but im really looking forward to it just being over
but then i have some business class
i have no idea why i picked it...
but i guess i just have to deal
i hope its not too boring
or that i at least have some okay people in my class.

two of my aunts are pregnant again
which is cool with me
the more cousins, the merrier
i think im at...
uhh
*counts*
10?
plus the next two should be about 12
thats pretty decent
more than the amount of my parents siblings
sooo yeah

but aside from most of that
i've been really confused
and stressed out
some really important stuff has happened
most that im really not allowed to say
most of it had me going "are you shittin me? you think i'd buy that?"
i had a time or two where i had an "is this real?"
and a few "not again"s
but it's cool
i think i have it under control

OH
cause i know i havent said this yet
you people should check out some of these bands:
The Maine
Hit The Lights
Aucifer
System of a Down
Death Cab For Cutie
Rage Against The Machine

I just got into them
and you guys should try too
theyre really good!

well, im signing out
i have cleaning and whatever to do
(ps, we may have to get together for new years? that'd be awesome!)

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"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?