This was no accident, it was a theruputic chain of events.

Hey
Happy belated Christmas
and all that shit.

sorry, yet again
for not posting in what may seem to be forever
I get sidetracked
Other stuff to do, you know?
for one, there's the extended family
oh god
you think your family's crazy?
meet mine
i dare you

we had christmas at my aunts house yesterday
way out in who-the-hell-knows where.
oh joy
i got a few things
nothing really amazing
$20, a few gift cards (wtf is with my rich aunt and having to give me gift cards to stores i loathe? last year it was abercrombie, this it was aeropostale. WHAT ABOUT HOT TOPIC? TO SCARED TO GO IN LIKE EVERYONE ELSE?)
...
sorry
i shouldnt be that mean
i mean, it was for $40
i could just let leanne use it
and have my mom pay me back.

but that brings up a question:
what's up with people and having to have a job that completely neglects their children?
i mean, she's one of the higher-ups for bank of america
but her daughter, my little cousin (she's here right now)
she's so clingy
i mean, she never sees her parents, ever
it seems to take a lot out of her.
i think she still sleeps in bed with them somenights
and shes 12!
i mean, normally at that age kids dont even want to be seen with their parents.
AND SHE SLEEPS IN THEIR BED!
whats wrong with people?
show your children some love
or they'll grow to resent you
A LOT

i have this friend at school
he talks a lot about how his family is rich, and how he gets to travel so much and how he has all this nice stuff
but he has this horrible temper!
he can get pissed over nothing
i was talking to him one night
and he said something to the extent of "my dad tries to understand what he doesnt know. He's not here enough to know about anything."
hearing stuff like that always catches me off-guard
theres almost a gag reflex
like, thats not possible.
but i guess it is
it just doesnt happen to me.

onnnnnnn the lighter side
i got Panic's "...Live In Chicago" cd for christmas
(i was actually there when my parents were buying most of my presents. not much was a surprise, unless you cound the billions of headphones i got. oh, and the runescape membership XD)
but seriously
it made me love their music all over again
in the most literal form of the word
ive always wanted to go to one of their concerts
or any concert for a band i like, for that matter
ive seen them on youtube
they look like so much fun
but the best part?
they always play a different version of the song
and it almost always ends up better than the original, in my mind.
also, i was listening through it straight
brendan tried to hit these really high notes (it was probably on Camisado) (it was on "you're a regular decorated emergenCY
OHMYGOD XD
that made my whole week
and i learned something else
i think Ryan (Ross) has a british accent, or something to that extent
i dont think ive ever actually heard him talk before
but i sort of went "who the fuck is talking? it doesnt sound like any of them!"
anyway
i seriously suggest you people listen to it
or ill borrow it to you
its that fucking awesome.

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Love is watching someone die...

First off, I appologize
for not posting in
forever? can i say it's been forever?
*sigh*
well
it's been at least a month
but a lot has happened
seriously, a LOT

okay
first
My concert's wednesday
I'm really looking forward to it
I mean, seriously
band concerts are the shit.
plus, I love it when theres random people you find there
its like a game XD
the orchestra concert was okay, i guess
but our orchestra sucks
dont get me wrong, i love music
just not when they play it.
but it'll be a little sad for ours.
i mean, losing first chair by half a point, its really depressing.
oh well
i still get to play picc a bunch
(stupid taylor, its my instrument first AND im better.)
did i mention i can get the full range without buzzing?
im really happy now!
our band is really fun this year too
i mean, theyre no match for last years band
by a long shot
but its still fun

bowling last night/this morning was fucking sweet.
i mean, i havent gone since last time
(for those of you who've read this for a wihle, i mentioned it one of my first posts back in february)
then we kept changing eachothers names
and warren started nonstop giggling
i think jessie ended up winning the most
oh well
thank god we didnt sled
it was horrible out
i mean, we have most of winter break
we can wait.

me and mel got into Loveless
we were told it was good
so we watched it over the phone together yesterday
but im farther than her now XD
its pretty cute
(i have the opening song, tell me if you want it)
i think some people reading this would like it
i mean, if youre into manga/anime (which is actually pretty awesome)
i started playing gaia again
i tried it a year or so ago
but i wasnt too into it
now that i know that my friends like it
i like it
my person's pretty kick ass
http://www.gaiaonline.com/profiles/?u=6628624&_gaia_t_=718
cool?
i know
I DO NOT HAVE A PROBLEM/ADDICTION.
SHUT UP TYLER.

my daddy just got home from vegas today
i got a new sweater
its warm!
and he also got me new portable ipod speakers
that are the same as the ones i broke!
yay!
theyre decent quality.

i think we start swimming in gym soon
but its okay
I already have my excuses set.
but im really looking forward to it just being over
but then i have some business class
i have no idea why i picked it...
but i guess i just have to deal
i hope its not too boring
or that i at least have some okay people in my class.

two of my aunts are pregnant again
which is cool with me
the more cousins, the merrier
i think im at...
uhh
*counts*
10?
plus the next two should be about 12
thats pretty decent
more than the amount of my parents siblings
sooo yeah

but aside from most of that
i've been really confused
and stressed out
some really important stuff has happened
most that im really not allowed to say
most of it had me going "are you shittin me? you think i'd buy that?"
i had a time or two where i had an "is this real?"
and a few "not again"s
but it's cool
i think i have it under control

OH
cause i know i havent said this yet
you people should check out some of these bands:
The Maine
Hit The Lights
Aucifer
System of a Down
Death Cab For Cutie
Rage Against The Machine

I just got into them
and you guys should try too
theyre really good!

well, im signing out
i have cleaning and whatever to do
(ps, we may have to get together for new years? that'd be awesome!)

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Just sit back and relapse again...

Hey
sooo
I'm gonna try and post more
I kinda got out of the habit...
but
I think this is an awesome way for me to remember when stuff happened.
so post I shall!

hmmmm
anything interesting this week?
...
YES
okay
there was WKCE testing
for most of the grades
but us (XD)
so tuesday
TUESDAY WAS AWESOME
we had a half day
but it wasnt a normal half day...
we had one where we got to come for the end of the day
so, in turn
everone slept in
it was great
and me and Mel went out to breakfast
which was fun
wednesday
we got to watch this movie
Far and Away, i think?
but it wasnt that great
just about Irish immigrants
and going west
and Tom Cruise (again, XD)
but everyone from our grade was watching it
together
so it got REALLY crazy
but it was funny
and some assholes behind me kept screaming "OBAMAAAAA!"
and then there was some motavational speech
THURRRRRSDAY
was fucking sweet
we had our field trip to the colleges
I loved the group I was with
(you know why, Mel)
and i realized
i dont really hate the people in my grade as much as i think
theres okay people
i just dont have classes with most of them >.<
like my 7th grade gym/health class
that had to be the best class of people ive had
last year's band came in a close second
okay
sooo
friday
we lost jessie (what a surprise)
and then we found her
and everyone came here for more band practice
and yesterday i didnt really do anything
so theres your update on my week

what else, you ask?
well, with finale
I finally finished putting two of my solos into it
all 4 movements
(both Telemann)
im almost done with Dance, Dance
just need to work on the piano part (....Tori....)
I started private lessons on tuesday
looks like theyll be okay
sooo
i shall get back to work on Dance, Dance
and maybe other stuff
who knows?

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Your words so symphonic

okay
since you guys asked
here it is:

[19:26] Me: "the ice is getting thinner"
[19:26] Rachel: any of yew wanna get stoned 2night with us? even though i have no idea who most of you are?
[19:26] Zack: now Tyler is calling you dumbass XD
[19:26] Tori: Write, "Arm the lawyers!"
[19:26] Zack: oh yea heard my new band name?
[19:26] Tori: That the a reference, woo!
[19:26] Tori: Wow can haz no grammar.
[19:26] Me: booo
[19:26] Me: forced
[19:26] Me: XD
[19:27] Tori: What the heck do you guys mean by "forced"?
[19:27] Tori: I didn't make him say that.
[19:27] Zack: MATT
[19:27] Tori: And I wasn't planning it.
[19:27] Me: "Sonata in F minor, movement 2"
[19:27] Matt: my mom has a really old guitar with a hole in the side can we run that over
[19:27] Me: =D
[19:27] Zack: hhhm maybe
[19:27] Me: i'd do that
[19:27] Zack: but dude, heard my new band?
[19:27] Me: but no one can drive
[19:27] Matt: not realy
[19:27] Matt: who's in it
[19:27] Zack: me, tyler
[19:27] Rachel: any one wanna part wit us? we're doing piercings and shit too. :]
[19:27] Me: no
[19:28] Zack: and my drummer doesnt want me to name him anywhere
[19:28] Tori: ...?
[19:28] Matt: come on say the name
[19:28] Zack: our band name is Zero Flowers
[19:28] Me: psh we own you
[19:28] Zack: you probably do
[19:28] Matt: i could make a pretty good icon for that
[19:28] Tori: Yeah, ours is better.
[19:28] Zack: thats cuz im a sucky asian
[19:28] Me: like aron!
[19:28] Matt: i could make a good icon for Zero Flowers
[19:28] Zack: again, im a sucky asian, not perfect like a normal one
[19:29] Tori: ... What?
[19:29] Zack: THEN MAKE ONE MATT
[19:29] Tori: That racist...
[19:29] Matt: fine hold on
[19:29] Tori: *That's
[19:29] Me: you two could be asian together
[19:29] Zack: -____-
[19:29] Matt: i'll make it right now
[19:29] Zack: trust me, i had enough rasict asian crap today
[19:29] Me: but he's stereotypical asian, so tha maynot work
[19:29] Matt: brb
[19:30] Me: "stay young"
[19:30] Matt: ok the icon should take a few hours to make
[19:30] Matt: plus color
[19:30] Matt: what color should there be
[19:30] Zack: idk
[19:30] Me: PINK!
[19:30] Zack: any ideas?
[19:30] Matt: like red
[19:30] Me: AND ORANGE
[19:30] Zack: and black
[19:30] Matt: and green
[19:30] Me: FLASHING
[19:31] Me: LIKE SEIZURES!
[19:31] Rachel: yew are boring.
[19:31] Zack: omg, just like Devon Strickland XD
[19:31] Tori: AHAHAH! "Yew".
[19:31] Matt: so i got red,black,green,pink, and orange
[19:31] Tori: Epic fail.
[19:31] Matt: anything else
[19:31] Tori: Tori says purple.
[19:31] Zack: puple
[19:31] Zack: purple*
[19:31] Matt: purple?
[19:31] Tori: WOO!
[19:31] Zack: my fav color
[19:31] Matt: tok
[19:31] Tori: No wayyyyyy
[19:31] Tori: My favorite color!!
[19:32] Me: the green must be lime
[19:32] Zack: NO MINE
[19:32] Matt: anything else
[19:32] Matt: because now it may take a few days
[19:32] Me: XDDDD
[19:32] Zack: dude, i can create something tonight if i want to
[19:32] Me: me too
[19:32] Zack: >_>
[19:32] Me: youre slow
[19:32] Matt: i will hold on
[19:32] Zack: yep, like dea said
[19:32] Matt: i need to make it a good god damn picture
[19:32] Me: page two of 4 done!
[19:32] Zack: YOUR IN ART!!!!
[19:32] Tori: Woo!
[19:32] Tori: Tori isn't working on anything.
[19:33] Me: last movement of the song!
[19:33] Zack: HOW DOES IT TAKE YOU DAYS!?!?!
[19:33] Me: finally
[19:33] Tori: I'll find "Glory Days"...
[19:33] Me: but i need to get that one i did for S&E last year in too
[19:33] Matt: becasue i need to find the fuckingh color
[19:33] Zack: come on dude, im in concert band and jazz band, AND I STILL MAKE DECENT PICS
[19:33] Me: maybe ill go through my top played songs for itunes
[19:33] *** Kelly has joined the chat.
[19:33] Tori: ?
[19:34] Me: told you
[19:34] Kelly: who is this? i got a chat invite
[19:34] Tori: I want a Panic at the disco song.
[19:34] Me: i tried
[19:34] Zack: i have lot of those
[19:34] Me: it didnt work
[19:34] Tori: Why not?
[19:34] Me: stupid flute harmony
[19:34] Matt: dude i've already started
[19:34] Zack: wow me too
[19:34] Me: i was gonna do "the piano knows something i dont know"
[19:34] Me: but the flute was evil
[19:34] Matt: i got the Z done
[19:35] Me: couldnt get it if i tried
[19:35] Kelly: is deanna in this chat room?
[19:35] Zack: yes she is
[19:35] Tori: Shhh!!!
[19:35] Me: .....
[19:35] Kelly: oh. this is kelly from her softball team. did you send me a chatroom invite? lol
[19:35] Tori: We were gonna have her pop up and say "Surprise!"
[19:35] Me: warren was in here
[19:35] Tori: God, Zack, you ruined it!
[19:35] Me: he left
[19:35] Zack: mhm
[19:35] Zack: thats why no one likes me
[19:35] *** Tori has left the chat.
[19:35] Me: im getting them back
[19:36] Me: FRIEND FISHING!
[19:36] Matt: zack ur datign hannah
[19:36] Matt: so shut up
[19:36] Zack: i know
[19:36] Zack: thats different
[19:36] *** Kelly has left the chat.
[19:36] Zack: cuz of pie
[19:36] Me: awwwww
[19:36] Me: pie is good
[19:36] Me: ....
[19:36] Zack: i know
[19:37] Zack: YAY MEL'S ON :D
[19:37] Me: -.-
[19:37] Zack: what -__-
[19:37] Me: you arent allowed to talk to her, you do know that?
[19:37] fMe: right?
[19:37] Me: cause i swear ill kill you if you do
[19:37] Jessie: where tori
[19:38] Zack: hm she didnt tell me that
[19:38] *** Tori has joined the chat.
[19:38] Me: there
[19:38] Tori: Thank you for not giving up on me.
[19:38] Me: im inviting her anyway
[19:38] Tori: I'm watching Melissa and me play "Brian Wilson".
[19:38] Tori: I was gonna say "do "Brian Wilson"" but that sounds funny.
[19:38] Me: it does
[19:39] Zack: wait wait...wheres matt? O_o
[19:39] Me: maybe ill do hawthorne heights....
[19:39] Me: or time to dance!!!!!!!
[19:39] Rachel: YOUR DATING HANNAH??
[19:39] Me: *GASP*!!!
[19:39] Rachel: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA
[19:39] Me: ....
[19:39] Me: rachel, you dont know him
[19:39] Matt: yes i missyou is finally on on itunes
[19:39] Zack: by da blink?
[19:39] Rachel: yeah so?
[19:39] Matt: yeah
[19:39] Rachel: we neva said we did.
[19:39] Me: and you dont know hannah
[19:40] Tori: Hannah?
[19:40] Me: so why you laugh
[19:40] Rachel: who da fuck are yew?
[19:40] Tori: Did I miss something?
[19:40] Me: dunno
[19:40] Rachel: i enjoy laughter.
[19:40] Me: dont think so
[19:40] Matt: yeah zack i'm still here bgut focused more oon the picture
[19:40] Me: tori
[19:40] Rachel: don't doubt the truth, babe.
[19:40] Me: how about time to dance?
[19:40] Tori: I didn't invite her.
[19:40] Zack: ah
[19:40] Me: i didnt either
[19:40] Tori: Hmmm.
[19:40] Zack: well get off the chat room dude
[19:40] Me: we'd have epic background
[19:40] Tori: Nine in the afternoon!
[19:40] Me: .....
[19:41] Rachel: ew.l
[19:41] Rachel: panic sucks now.
[19:41] Me: THEY HAVE BETTER SONGS THAN THAT
[19:41] Tori: You suck now.
[19:41] Tori: Oooooooooooo!
[19:41] Zack: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA XD
[19:41] Me: i can try both
[19:41] Tori: I know they do...
[19:41] Tori: Yeah!
[19:41] Matt: hey zack is there a girl in the band?
[19:41] Rachel: their old songs are better.
[19:41] Me: theres a lot of parts, though
[19:41] Me: it'll take forever
[19:41] Zack: no
[19:41] Rachel: i liked them before that cd anyway.
[19:41] Tori: I can be the girl in the band.
[19:41] Zack: dude its just the three
[19:41] Me: like, a piccolo trumpet
[19:41] Matt: ah ok
[19:41] Tori: *kidding*
[19:41] Me: WHAT?
[19:41] Rachel: tori, you better be.
[19:41] Rachel: your nothinbg like patd
[19:41] Rachel: you poser.
[19:41] Me: thatd be difficult
[19:41] Matt: ok
[19:41] Zack: we're gonna become the next BLINK
[19:41] Rachel: damn, you galls people never change.
[19:41] Rachel: falls*
[19:41] Matt: right
[19:41] Rachel: i'm glad i just live for stanic partynig shit.
[19:41] Rachel: :]
[19:42] Me: since its kinda, you know, its mostly girls
[19:42] Matt: Zero Flowers is gonna be the next Blink
[19:42] Tori: We are?
[19:42] Zack: HELLS YEA
[19:42] Me: hm?
[19:42] Me: im lost
[19:42] Zack: ITS A NUMBER BAND XD
[19:42] matt: me 2
[19:42] Tori: Me too.
[19:42] Tori: We can be lost together!
[19:42] Rachel: Marilyn Manson.
[19:42] Rachel: :]
[19:42] Me: WOO!
[19:42] Jessie: my blanket smells like baby formula
[19:42] Rachel: just had to add some good shit to this convo.
[19:42] Me: how does that happen?
[19:42] Rachel: :]
[19:42] Tori: Marilyn Mason is weird.
[19:43] Me: and ugly
[19:43] Zack: but cool
[19:43] Rachel: Manson*
[19:43] Zack: NNNOO
[19:43] Zack: he just looks like my mom >_>
[19:43] Rachel: no he ain't ugly. his real self is gorgeous.
[19:43] Tori: Ewww!
[19:43] Matt: ok maybe the ppicture may only take a day
[19:43] Me: XD
[19:43] Tori: I don't want to know what your mom looks like...
[19:43] Rachel: i'm metting him.
[19:43] Zack: oh NOW it takes a day >_>
[19:43] Jessie: what horrible english some people have
[19:43] Jessie: cough rachel cough
[19:43] Matt: shut up i've already started
[19:43] Rachel: meeting*
[19:43] Tori: Hehehe "metting"
[19:43] Tori: It sounds like a violent verb.
[19:43] Zack: dude, im done
[19:43] Zack: HA
[19:43] Tori: Oooo!
[19:44] Zack: and it decent
[19:44] Me: is brendan a tenor or alto?
[19:44] Rachel: i don't have horrible english. making a typo isn't bad enlish.
[19:44] Tori: Matt has been ownd.
[19:44] Me: i think alto
[19:44] Zack: he gets owned on halo too
[19:44] Tori: Brendan?
[19:44] Matt: brb
[19:44] Me: yeah
[19:44] Tori: *doesn't know who that is*
[19:44] Zack: but he acts like a panzy and gets in a vehcile
[19:44] Rachel: ya'll need some pot. then you might be as poserish.
[19:44] Me: panic's singer, tori
[19:44] Matt: yeah i know i've been ownd idc
[19:44] Me: my icon!
[19:44] Rachel: you'd use logic.
[19:44] Me: (hint)
[19:44] Tori: Is that the one with Ryan Ross?
[19:44] Tori: Or is that a different band?
[19:44] Rachel: Ryan Ross!! i met him!!
[19:44] Rachel: i love him so fucking much!!!!
[19:44] Me: no one fucking cares!
[19:44] Rachel: (his first famous self, he changed.)
[19:44] Zack: i still gonna freakin own you again
[19:45] Me: yes, tori
[19:45] Tori: *slow clap*
[19:45] Tori: Oh ok.
[19:45] Tori: Wait, what does he do, then?
[19:45] Rachel: ryan is gorgeous.
[19:45] *** Zack has left the chat.
[19:45] Rachel: eeeek. :]
[19:45] Tori: Wait, when did Kelly leave?
[19:45] Me: brendan's the main singer, and plays piano and guitar sometimes
[19:45] Jessie: your mom is gorgeous
[19:45] Me: when you left
[19:45] Tori: Aww.
[19:45] *** Zack has joined the chat.
[19:45] Tori: I can be like him, then!
[19:45] Me: you're welcome
[19:45] Tori: Except I don't play guitar...
[19:46]Me: nope
[19:46] Rachel: no you can't tori.
[19:46] Zack: why -___-
[19:46] Tori: or sing, really.
[19:46] Zack: wwhhyyyy
[19:46] Rachel: you can't become someone.
[19:46] Zack: WWWHHYYYY
[19:46] Rachel: you gotta be yerself.
[19:46] Zack: WHY!? -__-
[19:46] Me: we're kinda good together
[19:46] Tori: Why what?
[19:46] Zack: idk
[19:46] Me: he's being dramatic
[19:46] Rachel: but you don't know what that's like. and it looks like you never will.. which is sad.
[19:46] Me: cause he can
[19:46] Rachel: *hands over some pot*
[19:46] Me: fuck you rachel
[19:46] Zack: now, i gotta go write my song and bass part
[19:46] Tori: Zack is?
[19:46] Rachel: damn, ya'll need to be attacked by some demons or soemthing.
[19:46] Rachel: no thanks.
[19:46] Rachel: i got meh bf.
[19:46] Zack: what bout me?
[19:46] Rachel: :]
[19:46] Tori: This is why we don't invite her.
[19:46] Rachel: i'd rather you not.
[19:46] Me: i figured
[19:46] Tori: *Turns to Jessie*
[19:47] Rachel: by this screen popped up.
[19:47] Me: *glares*
[19:47] Rachel: but*
[19:47] Tori: Hehehe
[19:47] Rachel: aha.
[19:47] Rachel: i'm true evil, don't try to defeat me.
[19:47] Tori: I would've at least done *slow clap*.
[19:47] Rachel: i'm as satanic as it gets.
[19:47] Me: oh sorry
[19:47] Zack: well im ma go noooowwwww *creeps toward door*
[19:47] Rachel: and don't mess with me.
[19:47] Me: *slow claps*
[19:47] Tori: Is there a way to kick her out?
[19:47] Rachel: i'll fucking killy ou and i'm not kidding.
[19:47] Me: we can make a new chat
[19:47] Rachel: how about i just leave?
[19:47] Jessie: you're no where near evil
[19:47] Rachel: and leave your
[19:47] Tori: Nahh.
[19:47] Jessie: you think you are but you're not
[19:47] Tori: Rachel's a poser.
[19:47] Rachel: sorry ass poser selves.
[19:47] Rachel: no i ain't.
[19:47] Me: yup
[19:47] Me: you are
[19:47] Rachel: satanic-
[19:47] Jessie: YEA
[19:47] Me: poser
[19:47] Tori: Yeah.
[19:48] Jessie: RACHEL
[19:48] Rachel: beliefs you are youre own self god
[19:48] Jessie: IS
[19:48] Tori: She's trying to be Marilyn Manson.
[19:48] Rachel: and parties.
[19:48] Me: poserrrrrrrrrr
[19:48] Jessie: A
[19:48] Jessie: POSER
[19:48] Rachel: no i'm not.
[19:48] Me: YUP
[19:48] Jessie: oooooooooooooooooooooooooo
[19:48] Me: you are
[19:48] Rachel: he isn't satanic.
[19:48] Rachel: haha.
[19:48] Me: poser
[19:48] Tori: Wannabe poser!
[19:48] Jessie: no what
[19:48] Jessie: POSER
[19:48] Me: wannabeeeeeeeeee
[19:48] Tori: Hehehe.
[19:48] Rachel: how am i trying to be manson?
[19:48] Jessie: POSER
[19:48] Me: poser
[19:48] Tori: Even Deanna knows.
[19:48] Zack: yyeeaa...um, i gotta write a song ssooo yyeeaaa, Tori, ill talk to you later...Dea, same for you, matt, see you on Monday
[19:48] Me: XD
[19:48] Rachel: wow, so i say something about you guys, so you say something to me.
[19:48] Jessie: RACHEL'S A POSER
[19:48] Tori: And she barely knows you.
[19:48] Rachel: no i anit.
[19:48] Jessie: so shes going to do poser stuff
[19:48] Jessie: like omg
[19:48] Jessie: no one likes me
[19:48] Me: bye zack!
[19:49] Rachel: aint* yeah because she just copies you.
[19:49] Jessie: im going to cut myself
[19:49] Tori: Hehehe.
[19:49] Jessie: hehehehe
[19:49] Me: me tooo
[19:49] Rachel: i don't think that.
[19:49] Rachel: and i burn.
[19:49] Tori: Yeah that's what Aron said!
[19:49] Rachel: pentagrams.
[19:49] Rachel: into
[19:49] Rachel: my arom.
[19:49] Tori: He's not sticking around?
[19:49] Jessie: then im going to show everyone my cuts
[19:49] Rachel: my srom* in satanic rituals, which ahve nothing to do with marilyn manson..
[19:49] Tori: Come on, Zack, this is fun!
[19:49] Zack: *runs out door* IF IM JUST QUIET THEY wwont...notice.....me....darn -__-
[19:49] Jessie: and then get their sympathy
[19:49] Zack: what??
[19:49] Jessie: because i need attention
[19:49] flutesrpunkrock: im gonna use big words and think im smart
[19:49] Jessie: love me hate me
[19:49] Rachel: i don't do that either, i'm not emo. and people think you're a poser jessie.
[19:49] Jessie: i dont care
[19:49] Rachel: kristen talks to me.
[19:49] Zack: i cant just write a song adn talk at the same time
[19:49] Tori: Hehehe.
[19:49] Jessie: im me
[19:49] Rachel: and she thinsk you are too.
[19:49] Jessie: and no one can see that
[19:50] Rachel: you copy her.
[19:50] Tori: I'm Rachel and I cut and burn myself.
[19:50] Jessie: i call everyone posers because they all hate me
[19:50] Rachel: ha, i'm not smart.
[19:50] Me: you wish you had friends
[19:50] Jessie: because im myself
[19:50] Rachel: not every one hates me.
[19:50] Rachel: damn, jessie do you have a death wish?
[19:50] Jessie: and they are all posers
[19:50] Tori: Awww, not everyone hates you Jessie.
[19:50] Jessie: and im going to try and threaten people
[19:50] Me: i love you jessie!
[19:50] Rachel: no, but you and tori are.
[19:50] Tori: Rachel has no friends.
[19:50] Rachel: you think i don't have friends?
[19:50] Jessie: because im sooo insecure
[19:50] Me: yup
[19:50] Rachel: DAMN I GOT IN TROUBLE FOR
[19:50] Tori: Hehehe.
[19:50] Jessie: that i believe what everyone says
[19:50] Me: XDF
[19:50] Zack: just invite me to the next chatroom
[19:50] Rachel: PLANNING SHIT AT PIUS DO DONT GO SAYING SHIT.
[19:50] Me: dj;alf[oOPFHDPEDhf[ajdfpohas
[19:50] Jessie: i love you too deanna!!
[19:50] Zack: i have to be in my emo phase to write a sonf
[19:50] Zack: somg*
[19:50] Me: will do
[19:50] Tori: Can I haz love Jessie?
[19:50] Zack: song(
[19:50] Jessie: but you cant love me
[19:50] Rachel: no.
[19:50] Jessie: no one can
[19:51] Rachel: go fuck yer momma.
[19:51] Me: aw
[19:51] Jessie: because i wont let them
[19:51] Rachel: i don't talk like that at all jessie.
[19:51] Jessie: they will have a depressing life
[19:51] Me: tori we can love each other!
[19:51] *** Tori has left the chat.
[19:51] Rachel: and why are you talking to my friends from falls who do cut worse than me if you feel that way?
[19:51] Zack: yyess, they dont know im gone
[19:51] *** Zack has left the chat.
[19:51] Rachel: hmm?
[19:51] Jessie: and fuck i fuck like fuck to fuck swear fuck in fuck between fuck every fuck other fuck word
[19:51] Rachel: i'll let them all know how you full about htat.
[19:51] Jessie: and im such a badass
[19:51] Jessie: my mother hits me
[19:51] Jessie: and my dad rapes me
[19:51] Rachel: ha, that's kayko and all them.
[19:51] Jessie: no one understands me
[19:51] Jessie: im going to kiill myself
[19:51] *** Tori has joined the chat.
[19:51] Rachel: wow, you need help hun. how about you stopt rying to be emo, and leave the real ppl alone.
[19:51] Rachel: :]
[19:51] Jessie: except i can't because it's complicated
[19:51] Rachel: good bye.
[19:52] Rachel: go get pot. :]
[19:52] *** Rachel has left the chat.
[19:52] Me: XD
[19:52] Tori: Ahahah druggie...
[19:52] Jessie: YAAAAAAAAAAAY
[19:52] Me: THAT WAS AWESOME
[19:52] Me: poserrr
[19:52] Jessie: it workd
[19:52] Jessie: it was great
[19:52] Tori: Yay, now we keep the chat room!
[19:52] Jessie: someone save it!!!1
[19:52] Me: yup
[19:52] Tori: Awww, I wasn't even here for all of it...
[19:52] Me: i got it copied
[19:52] Me: ill post it?
[19:53] Tori: ... Where?
[19:53] Me: blog?
[19:53] Jessie: YAAAAY
[19:53] Jessie: yea in the blog of yours!
[19:53] Me: i havent done that in a while
[19:53] Jessie: that i have never seen...
[19:53] Jessie: i should get a blog
[19:53] Matt: hey i g2g make that icon so STFU LOSERS!!
[19:53] *** needforspeedW4V3 has left the chat.
[19:53] Me: XD
[19:53] Me: today is awesome
[19:53] Tori: Jessie, you always get a blog.
[19:54] Tori: Then you forget about said blog.
[19:54] Jessie: nooo
[19:54] Jessie: only like three times
[19:54] Jessie: today is awesome
[19:54] Jessie: no two times
[19:54] Tori: No, 3?

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

The truth hurts worse than anything I could bring myself to do to you.

hey!
I guess I'm back
kindanotreally
but
did I ever mention how we're all doing this epic "put a song into Finale 'cause it's awesome" thing?
yeah
well
I picked "I've Got All This Ringing In My Ears And None On My Fingers" (you have no idea how many times I've had to retype that into Finale in the past two days)
and
thanks to online guitar/bass tabs (yet to find trumpet/piano)
I'm almost done!
well, almost done in the sense I have a basic outline for the song
I mean, you just can't make a computer sound like a live band
it's pretty difficult.
But, seriously
if you ask
and you have Finale
I'll send it to you
both the real one and the Finale rip-off like version
because as Tori said
"Whoa, this song is epic!"

Okay, so what else?
uhh
so
we kindof have our band in the making
Essence of Papaya
(don't say anything, Skylar)
we had a practice on friday
I think it was pretty good for our first time trying something outside of a school band setting.
the quartet was kick ass
love it
could be a little faster, though i should pratice that stupid 16ths/32nds part...
XP urgh.
brian wilson was okay, too
i mean
my part is pretty much death
i think everyone wants jessie's part
except for tori
because she loves her piano part
it would be much better if we could all hear each other....

uhm
is it a bad thing if i ate a Reese's and it tastes like vomit?
i think so....

okay
off to work on the song!
bye!

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Stuffz 'n' Homecoming

WOOOOOOOOO
It's all over
Homecoming weekend overall was pretty awesome
but, as normal
I'm kinda glad that it's all over and done with now.


*sigh*
I'm gonna hate drinking
i get hungover enough without even drinking....
hm
maybe thats half the fun of it ^.^

okaayyyyy

so
lets see
uhhh
friday:
School
Beatles day
other stuff
dealing with people
etc.
lunch with family
then
THE GAME!
but
we were owned
7-21
stupid Brook East
go die.
B-52's
icecreams
talking
fighting on the front lawn
uhh
went home
yesterday:
sat around home alone
leanne had soccer (what a surprise!)
uhh
computer
preparing
got picked up by Jessie around 5
forgot my cell phone
we got ready and ate at Tori's
danced to random music
polka'd
pictures
my camera died before it even turned on....
went to the dance
figured out soon enough we could've gotten in without a ticket....
all they played EVER was rap
other than the few 80's songs
"danced"
scared the shit out of people because i know rap
(4 years of listening means that i should know a lot of the popular stuff)
finding a bunch of people i know
having to deal with all the grinding couples *pukes all over*
"OMG A PINK DRESS?!?!?"
punch runs!
flash fights
calling Warren
tori "losing her shoes"
ended up with hers anyway
finding their hearts
"Lonnlay" XD
the bonfire
singing on the swings
ignoring mel and that stupid decision.
getting home at 1:15 -.-

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Whatever happened to all the cool shit of the '90, anyways?

Yeah, this was me and Mel's big discussion of the weekend
It was like, "remember all the stuff we had when we were little?"
"yeah! why dont we see it anymore?"
"i dont know. you remember _____?"
"Yeah! and _____"
if you want to know the blanks, they consisted of:
*Furbies
*Pokemon
*Gameboys
*Rugrats
*Nintendo
*Duckhunt
*Sit 'n' Spin
*Big Wheels
*Pre-slut Britney Spears
*N'sync/Backstreet Boys
*Casette tapes
*Tamagotchis
*Bop-Its
*Slap Bracelets
*MTV

but
that was it
G'BYE!


______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks, then I will follow you into the dark.

HOLA TODO EL MUNDO! (Hello everyone!)
....todo el mundo? (Everyone?)
adonde van? (Where are you going?)
Que? (What?)
No soy interesante? (I'm not interesting?)
.....
dicen. (Says you.)
Creo que soy muy interesante... (I think I'm very interesting...)
USTEDES SON ESTUPIDOS (YOU'RE ALL STUPID.)
Cierto. Corren a las sus madres! (Right. Run to your mothers!)
Cuando quieren mi, estoy aqui. (When you need me, I'll be here.)

okay
thats my spanish for today
and guess what?
NO TRANSLATOR
AT ALL
Spanish 1 did wonders.

so
whats been going on lately, you ask?
well, i can only say so much
for the sake of keeping secrets hidden
but
i have 2 projects due tomorrow
i think we are doing stuff after school tomorrow
(well, except melissa)
and the football game?
ill go if i have someone else there with me
i hate being by myself >.<
oh wait
would i be with Anni or something, then?
because what else would she be doing at the time?
i dont know
whatever
i should get back to work
ADIOS!

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

I'll weigh you down, I'll watch you choke

Okay
I'm gonna be all bored today
and since a lot of you can pretty much claim that you dont know much about me, I'll do a mini-profile (this may or may not be influenced by the fact that its 9:30 PM and thats late for me...

(In no specific order...)
Name: Deanna
Most common nickname: Dede
Birthday: March 10
Favorite color: Green (lime green if you care; second is black)
One adjective to decribe me: Observant
Favorite meal: Fettucini alfredo
Hair color: Dark brown (me and Taylor noticed that it got lighter over the summer... how sad, right?)
Favorite band: damnit, it's a tie between CIWWAF, ATL and MP. really close though, i think All Time Low owns all, though.
Height: 5'5"-ish
Siblings: 1, sister, Leanne!
Pets: Tasha, schnoodle (yes that's a dog)
Instruments played: Flute, piccolo, some bass
Favorite online game: Runescape (I'll admit it...)
# of screen names: i dont even know... for AIM, i think im up to about 15 ^.^
Ice cream flavor: Choco-chip cookie dough
Favorite CD: Take This To Your Grave (this is older, in teen terms. from about 2004, i think?)
Label: Do I even have one? If I do, can you tell me?
#: 10
Most prized possession: well, the one i use the most is obviously my ipod, but my most expensive is my new flute.
Farthest traveled: Australia (the plane was freaking 15 hours from LA!)
Longest time away from home: My Europe trip (you all know when this was)
Favorite song (overall): Time To Dance (demo)
Favorite soda: Dr.Pepper
Most embarassing moment: actually, I dont get embarassed really. I have tipped a few desks over in school, though (meaning with me in them)
Funniest memory: uhh one time, back when Myspace wasn't blocked on my computer, I did one of those quizes, and I always chose one what asked me if ive ever sat on my roof. well, I hadnt, seeing as i was in 6th grade, but i was determined to. so, i climbed out my window and onto the roof, sat there for a minute or so, until some guy in a truck drove up, more than likely saw me, slowed down in confusion, and kept going. at the time i was scared like crazy, but looking back, it was worth it XD.
Worst lie: dunno, probably my excuse to get to Summerfest this year ^.^
Pet peeve: people who say "lol" to everything online....

okay, that was all i could think of
if theres something else you wanted to know, you can post a comment or whatever, and i can tell you on the next post.

PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JEFF! (though i hope he doesnt read this, thatd be kinda strange...)

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Show me the skyline, and I'll show you decaydence

And yet again,
It's been awhile...
5 whole CDs later, even!
WHOA
thats pretty bad on my part
i appologize
but
HERE I AM!
...
you know
i wish i could post more
you know
but
i have other stuff i want to get done with my time on the computer
like itunes organization
and
"Okay"
and
...
WTF?
Samurai Jack came on!
do any of you remember that show?
i do
its really really strange
but
hm
what else
school's back
stuff's cool
i have classes with a few okay people...
chair testing monday >.<
i really dont wanna be beaten by an eighth grader
because, you know, that would suck
but i feel good about how i know the songs
so
fingers crossed!

...
HEY
I decided
at the end of every post
I'll put some list of my music
today:
Top five most played!

#5: Don't You Know Who I Think I Am?, FOB/IOH (439 plays)
#4: Camisado, P!ATD/AFYCSO (449 plays)
#3: Nobody Puts Baby In The Corner, FOB/FOTCT (462 plays)
#2: The Pros And Cons Of Breathing, FOB/TTTYG (483 plays)
and finally
#1: Time To Dance, P!ATD/AFYCSO (580 plays)

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

We'll meet somewhere in betweeen...

Okay
this may or may not sound idiotic
but i finally figured out why my knees are always bruised
its because
i
use the riding lawnmower
and
the thing is too close for my legs
so i have to sort of sit strange
and my knees hit against it when i go over bumps
and if youve even done my backyard
youd know
that its REALLY uneven
like, extremely
BRUISES GALORE!
XP

oh
and guess what i learned?
im really shy
when im with people i truly hate
i dont know why, really
it just happens that way >.<
but
now you can tell
HOORAY
kinda


what else?
oh yeah
first day of school!
high school, even!
it was okay
i mean
i didnt die or anything
but
oh damn
i have to go
bye!

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

I wanna let you fly so high, nureta tsubasa...

Hey all!
If you didn't know
I got all those Japanese songs
30 or so total!
so now
I GETTA SOAK UP SOME JAP. CULTURE BIG TIME
READIN MANGA AND LISTENING TO JAP. ALT.
ULTIMATE ULLLLLLLLLLTIMATE CULTURE
XD
dunno why
i just love it
maybe ill live there someday...
anyone wanna be a roomie?
*imaginary Melissa shooting through the roof in excitement*
well, that was a given
*laughs to herself*
wow
now im daydreaming...
though
it seems nice there
all the people are cool
though
dont they eat a lot of seafood?
*sick look on her face*
shit
i just HATE seafood >.<
so gross
i think maybe ill take japanese sometime
or someone very nice will help teach me ^.^

hm
so
what do i really feel like saying?
oh, i know
today
well
leanne had a soccer tournament
somewhere in Illinois
so
i was stuck alone for 11 hours
but
tori said i could come over
sooooo
we messed around like
watching this:

and
uhh
the Heroes season two alternate ending
which was okay
i mean, the regular ending was okay
but
uhh
then
later
we kinda dressed up
and tori took photos
for her locker
and i thought
damnit, i should do that
but then she sent me some
though i wish
i had more/better ones of other people...
*sigh*
oh well

school starts on tuesday
and i know, skylar
youre going "DAMN YOU"
either, or
"HAHA TAKE THAT!"
^.^
this year should be so much better, though
melissa's saying
and i at least know people in two of my classes already that i can somewhat stand
so
i bet im in a better position that other people right now

oh
and i think you all should know
im suffering
i dont think i can get a decent guitar cord until tuesday
because tomorrow all the music stores are closed
and monday's labor day
so
yeah
make sense?

one last thing before i go
i just finished another manga
i know, crazy, right?
but
IT HAS THE SHITTIEST ENDING EVER
the guy i was thinking the girl should end up with (out of two)
was turned down
and now he moved to spain
HOW STUPID
im a little mad
but
now that i finished that
i have more time for other stuff
with that
ARIGATO AND SAYONARA!

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

We write the wrong....

OH MY GOD
http://www.mangable.com/kaikan_phrase/chapter-57/16/
I died when I found this
you probably don't remember this
Kaikan Phrase was about that band Lucifer
and I got one of their songs
Datenshi BLUE
and
that I got the translation in english
so
when I was reading the manga in which I found the band (and then the song) through, and guess what
THE SONG CAME
ITS ALL A HUGE CIRCLE! HOORAY!
I love this manga
I really do
it's really great

okay, a new topic
the song
...
I admit
I havent been working on it as much as I could/should have
but
I NEED A BREAK SOMETIMES
its really frustrating
working on something for a while
then getting to a point
where you just cant figure out what should work
like with the chorus
that damn guitar part
its so frustrating
i cant figure out what i think should be for most of it!
*sigh*
damn chords
I've never really been good at figuring them out
so i guess
and most suck
so i only know 3
and they dont work for all the measures....
eh
ill get it
sometime
whatever
XP

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

WOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Happy "Yay Deanna's finally ungrounded from the computer" day!
Because I say so
well
I'm putting up another icon group
for Mayday Parade
because they have enough now for their own
HOORAY!


______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

You're not just passing on, you're passing on all the fun we had.

Okay, guys
I seriously have a problem
I JUST BOUGHT ANOTHER CD
I mean, it's okay, but im gonna run out of money sometime
Its a bad addiction, trust me
but at least i get good music out of it
the cd is the new Hawthorne Heights one, Fragile Future
and thats where the title's from
i really like this cd
even though i just got it.
but
uhhhhh
the title's song
is really really sad!
i was like "wow, thats horrible"
(if you ever listen to it, its about how one of the band's guitarists died last november)
and it just made me think
what the hell am i going to do if i lose any of you guys?
i may just die on the inside
completely
i dont deal with death easily
....
maybe ill just go crazy ^.^

but, either way
we got back yesterday
which i guess is amazing
i dont need to spend the 3 extra days with my family (which i seriously can't stand)
my mom's just become a total bitch recently
i mean
she yells at me for everything
she's a huge hypocrite (you guys wouldnt even know)
she makes fun of people (yes, even you guys)
she bitches about the littlest things
she's lazy
and on top of all this
she expects me to be nice to her!
i mean, what the hell, lady?
you cant really think that.
....
whatever
i guess i can last another 4 years
but after that
im moving right out
no question.


______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Sou koduko ni kogoeta iro sa

yeah, that WAS from my amazing japanese song
(Translation: Like the color of frozen lonliness)
and, im posting from beautiful *who the hell knows where* New Hampshire...
(joking. its all mountains)
and shitty road choices
kinda Waukesha-esque
in the way you CANT GET ANYWHERE
at all
even the TomTom doesnt help much
you kinda have to cross your fingers and pray (if youre into that kind of stuff) that you get to where you want.

oh
and about this week...
something tragic happened.
Leannes a teen now o.O
can you imagine?
its like HELL for me
seriously
she thinks shes all better than me now
its horrible
and now i have to deal with it for another week, almost!
GAHHHHHHHH
ITS LIKE DEATHx2304726509834
but at least we got canada out of the way already (we were there the first day, and say niagara falls. i got another hard rock cafe sweatshirt, but its a lot different this time)

oh yeah
i think my mom's finally lost it
i mean, she bitches about EVERYTHING recently
"oh, im tired, can you just get me a hamburger from wherever you go?"
"well, we dont know if where were going has hamburgers"
"FINE! ill just stay here and starve"
that was just yesterday
what a bitch, eh?
and she always blames ME for everything that goes wrong in her life
and never does anything for herself
imgonna move out as soon as i can
i cant stand her anymore.....

oh
and one last little thing because i feel done with posting right now
my dad, when i played Datenshi BLUE in the car, was like "what the heck? is this italian? cause i cant make out a damn word he's saying."
so that made me laugh
funny old people ^.^

*also im gonna be messing with my menu bar today. cause i can*

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Let's leave this town behind...

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
What the hell gets into me when I read these damn mangas?
Its like
they eat me from the inside out
all like
making fun of me
cause my life isnt that amazing
i dunno
but they make me really jealous
showing me how my life could be
if i really wanted to make an effort
well, i have news for you japanese freaks
THATS TOO BAD!
I mean
i love reading them and all
but
*sigh*
it just kinda sucks in that way, okay?

ehhh
so
what else?
the mix CD is done!
and its pretty good
i dont even hate any songs on it!
like Picking Up The Pieces:

Got a ticket to a one-way train wreck
We fell off track before we left the station
And when the flames come pouring out,You will find us
And we will be standing all around,
Picking up the pieces

This is just broken love
Two hearts that can’t get enough
So when you have too much,
You gotta, gotta give it up
This is just broken love
Two hearts that can’t get enough
So when you have too much,
You gotta, gotta give it up

We’re a car crash, an accident with broken glass
We’re a plane wreck, a parachute that won’t eject
So let’s leave this mess behind just to save us
We could strike this fire down
And leave the spots between us

This is just broken love
Two hearts that can’t get enough
So when you have too much,
You gotta, gotta give it up
This is just broken love
Two hearts that can’t get enough
So when you have too much,
You gotta, gotta give it up

Got a ticket to a one-way train wreck
We fell off track before we left the station
And when the flames kept pouring out,
You didn’t find us
We were sitting all around, picking up the pieces
The pieces, the pieces

This is just broken love
Two hearts that can’t get enough
So when you’ve had too much,
You gotta, gotta give it up
This is just broken love
Two hearts that can’t get enough
So when you have too much,
You gotta, gotta give it up
This is just broken love
Two hearts that can’t get enough
So when you have too much,
You gotta, gotta give it up

i love it!
and it also doesnt hurt that it has an amazing backbeat...

p.s. check this video out! i found the band (theyre called "Λucifer" or "Lucifer") through the new manga I've been reading! if anyone could send me the song, i'll love you forever! (i think its called Datenshi Blue or something...)
PS Jessie did. YEAH!!!



The lyrics are (and translated):

Kire ta tenshi to akuma no
Half nanda ne ore-tachi
Tsumi no daiya wo shabutta
Hysteric na kuchibiru de
We are all half angels
Half devil that became angry
Sucking the diamonds of sin
With feverish lips

Nakushita yume wo
Sagasu you na kiss
The lost dream
Like searching for a kiss

Tejou hazushite hos hikerya
Hip mawashite nedare yo
Knife ni utsuru omae ga
Jelly mitai ni torokeru
If you want me to remove the handcuffs
Roll your hips and beg
Your reflection in my knife
Melts away like jelly

Nageki no poem
Tsudzuri nagara baby! Ready for dance?
A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?

Tsubasa no ato ga kasuka ni hikaru
Dakishimeau tabi
Namida wo himeta sono hitomi wa
Blue...blue...datenshi blue
Sou kodoku ni kogoeta iro sa
The remains of my wings shine weakly
When we embrace
Those eyes, holding back tears are
Blue blue ..... fallen angel blue
Like the color of frozen loneliness

Douse kanashii mirai sa
Ore ni go-doru de urina yo
Daiji na mono ga nanda ka
Jesus datte wakaranai
Your future is pathetic anyway, so
Sell it to me!
What's important in life
Not even Jesus knows

Hi no kioku to baby! ready for dance?
Baby! baby! give me a chance...
With the memory of fire, baby! Ready for dance?
Baby! Baby give me a chance?

Tsubasa no ato ga kasuka ni hikaru
Dakishimeau tabi
Horobita hazu no rakuen ga ima
Koko ni wa aru no sa
Furimukanai de yami wa itsumo
Blue...blue...datenshi blue
Aa kodoku ni yarare chimau ze
The remains of my wings shine weakly
When we embrace
The paradise I thought ruined
Lies within
Don't turn back! The darkness is always
Blue! Blue! Fallen angel blue!
Oh I'll be destroyed by loneliness...

Yarareru mae ni
Ai ni tobikome...
Before we are destroyed
Dive into love

______________________________________________________________________
"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."