A small price to pay for building houses out of matchsticks...

'ELO
HOLA
BONJOUR
'N' OTHER SHIZNIT LIKE THAT

heh...Coke is good for gettin' me hyped.
like A LOT
^.^

BE AFRAID.

Mel came today
cause she wanted to play RockBand, too
she was jealous-ish that Tori was here yesterday, I guess.
but she was here
and
uhh
we were pretty kick ass
though she really didn't want to do anything other than play bass/guitar
cause she didn't know the songs to sing
and complained about the drums
(and jsyk, I'm on a pretty steady medium, now ^.^)
plus she talked to Roze
"I thought you said his name was Zack!"
and she freaked
'cause he's emo, por supuesto.

uhh
*random*
I have a piece of my binder tied on my wrist
... no reason.
I just do

I'm also
gonna see how many songs I can figure the spanish names out for
(that came out pretty weird, but you got my point)
I have quite a few right now...

oh fuck
before i forget
HOY ES MIERCOLES
QUE ASCO!
XP
No me gusta los miercoles
they suck.
if they could do away with wednesdays, life'd be that much better

lalala
Taylor's getting a clarinet
lalala
lotsa homework
laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
uhhh
I'm not sure right now.

I think
Mrs. Leekley hates me
secretly
I have hours worth of homework
and I have to do a partner project pretty much by myself
(I kinda blame Kat for that.)
plus a virtual dissection
effin frogs
wish they'd all just fall into a hole
and rot
so we'd all be unable to dissect them correctly
*my dream*

We fell off track before we left the station...

"How can you learn to play in a band if you can't play with a drummer?"
"Dad, there's a reason that the drummer's in the back...and the only one without an amp."

Yeah
that was a few minutes ago
but
WE FINALLY OPENED ROCKBAND
and
well
I should really try something other than guitar
cause I'm good at it
and never tried anything else
I'll prolly suck
XP

then
uhh
in a bit
Tori's gonna be here
cause I told her she could play too
"I WANNA PLAY"
and
well
WE'RE GONNA ROCK
OR DIE HORRIBLY
one of the two...
hopefully the first

oh yeah
I UNDERSTAND THAT I DIDN'T POST ALL WEEKEND
OR YESTERDAY
I was busy
cleaning my room
to play Rock Band
so it was worth it
and now
i can see my floor!

hm.
that seems to be it
and, as Melissa would say it:
"BAI-NARA, BITCH!"

I give it all! This is the reason why I sing...

Hm
today
wasn't my greatest day ever
we moved down to the audi.
then
uhh

4 CHAMBERED HEART DAY
we went outside
and it smelled like worms

lunch
was pretty depressing
it kept thundering
and whenever it was too loud
all you'd hear is
oooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
and shit
'til the teachers are like
"CUT IT OUT!"

Band
we played Pirates
and it sounded real cool in the beginning
cause of the rain
it was really loud on the roof above the audi.
and
it added a lot to
*thinks*
"Hoist The Colors"
and
we finally used the chains!
though Josh needs to work on it a bit
it's kinda long

and after me and Nic
decided
that Aron ate his and Tori's unborn child
and then burned her
and that's why she wasn't there today

study hall
i finished my scales
3 OCTAVE Db BITCHEZ
hahahaha
Bill Steinke freaked out
and ran away
after i got up there
(AHAHAHAHA 6 LINES ABOVE THE TREBLE CLEF)
it's not the most comfortable thing to deal with
...trust me....
NAILS ON A FUCKING CHALKBOARD

hey
*totally off topic*
but have you ever noticed
that you can use fuck as the only word in a sentence
and it can make sense?
Fuck! Fucking Fuckers!
i thinks it cool.

but
then
i played cards again
only the floor now
cause all the stuff is gone
and
i'm not gonna use names
but i can tell
im like 99% sure
someone in my class cuts
...
it's not like im against it
or get weirded out by seeing it
but I've never actually met someone who did that
...

sb pictures
uhh
well
I FELT REALLY BAD
CAUSE I FORGOT LINDSEY'S NAME
SORRY!
but
i realized that
I know a lot of lefties
like a lot of friends who are
anddddd
...
let's leave it at that
*real close to an awkward explaination*
do they really have that different of a personality?
i don't really know for sure
but i feel bad for them
like how they have special made scissors
...poor, poor lefties
BUT
BEWARE!
they're gonna take ovet the world soon!
you can bet on it!

...
yeah
and other stuff

"OH THE IRONY!"

Yeah
I don't really feel like going over my day
so
I'll just say
I'm playing pokemon
and am bored
so I'm trying to get a shiny one
*which is pretty damn difficult*
but
at least it'll keep my busy for a while

P.S., I'm completely jealous of the people off the internet who talk about their shinies.
SOME HAVE LIKE 20!

Venting (boring, you shouldn't read this)

I hate wednesdays
especially this wednesday
shitty mood
allergies
I swear
and I know you wouldn't expect this from me
...
I was choking back tears on the bus
horrid headache
my music couldn't even cheer me up
which is a first
trust me.

Well
To make my life simpler
Let's put this in P.D. terms
I'm a passive person
Though people will say I have an aggressive personality
They don't know me that well then.
I take shit
I deal with people
I act as though I'm angry
key word there is "act"
I hold my real anger in
and I know it's unhealthy
but I do anyway.

This is truly from what I remember
one of the first days I've been really mad
for almost a year

I remember last time, too
It got really bad
to the point that I lost a friend
for
well
let me check
maybe a week
maybe two?
I dunno
I don't want to remember
...
I also don't want this to become an annual thing

On a lighter note, I know one good thing that happened today
I'm not gonna tell you, though
It's for me to know
and you to ponder
*strange word...*

DESTINATION: anywhere but here

WHY OH WHY IS MY MIND SO FUCKED UP?
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE ANSWER ME THAT?

I don't know why
or how
but this fit of total frustration just hit me
like a tidal wave
...
I think I'm depressed.

OH YEAH
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SKYLAR!
AND TAYLOR!
AND KAYLA!
AND THE OTHER BILLIONS OF PEOPLE AT OUR SCHOOL!

Hmmmm

Sometime I freak myself out
by getting too happy
or hippie
or stuff like that
but lately
I've been appreciating life a little more
...sorta like how I smile when I see the moon out when I'm on the bus going home...

HAHA

If you're reading this, that means you found the new URL

Cause we're all guilty of the same things, think the thoughts whether or not we see them through...

I don't feel like writing much today.

The title is a song quote (obviously)
but if what it means is true
then I'm guilty a whole lot of the time
thinking about it
cause I think bad things about people almost constantly
and plan to do things to them
...
kinda like a month ago
(you may or may not know what I'm talking about
but I'm not gonna say it here)

but yeah
I pretty much spent all of last night hanging out with these little ten year old twins
boy-girl
and we played Pokemon
^.^
oh yeah
you're jealous
I can tell
but I had fun
and about five sodas
so I was basically dead by 10:00
which is normal for me
getting up at five-thirty every morning can do that to a person

Oh, and for future reference
my sister gets her own featuring box
cause of the dumb shit she says to me

3: I wasn't born to be a skeleton

OMG THE PANIC-LYRIC-TITLES ARE DONE!
THIS IS THE LAST
...
or at least just the one from each song thing
HOW EXCITING, THOUGH!

hmmmm
notice anything different today?
...
...
..............
can't tell?
how sad
well
i fixed the nav bar
IT LOOKS COOL NOW!
and
THERE'S SUBMENUS!
you should appreciate them
you have no idea how long it took me to find the CSS/HTML for those fuckers

plus now
i have more room on my sidebars
...like i needed it...
but anyway
I moved some stuff
now i get lost on my own page
THERE'S JUST TOO MANY COLORS

*just cause I'm excited*
since I finally got my math grade up to a B, my GPA is officially higher than it was last semester
but
both language and social studies (or english and history)
are A-s/borderline B+s
so I gotta work my ass off to keep those up

cause I know you're wondering
today
all i did was have practice
then I'm going to
the Wenzel's house
cause my parents are playing Sheepshead with them
and that's it
I'm exhausted anyway

well, I'm gonna go back to making this thing amazing looking
SAYONARA!

12: When nothing really mattered except for me to be with you

"Warren was never innocent."
"Tori, didn't we already discuss the physics of how your face is your mom?"
"How do you say 'the pizzas are in my pants' in spanish?"

Uhh, yeah
that kinda sums it up
today and yesterday, I mean.

Yesterday:

not a whole lot happened
the highlight of my day
was pretty much study hall
when I played cards with Nic and Aron
and we were yelled at by Mr. Fox
for playing (Egyptian Rat Screw/Slap) on the piano bench
and making "too much noise"
and as Nic said
"well, we're only gonna make more noise if we use the chair!"

geez
in all reality,
how quiet can you expect three people playing a decently competitive card game that includes slaping a hollow surface to be?
...
thinking back on it, it would've been kinda cool to play on the bass drum ^.^

but then
Aron and Nic kept looking at their cards
"I bet I have a 7, then a king, then a 2"
"OH MY GOD HOW COULD YOU KNOW?!?"
which lead to a complete downhill spiral and an end
and I spent 15 minutes of the hour sorting the cards back to their decks

butthentherewas
TA-DA!
***today***
which was what we were all looking forward to
cause half-days are pretty cool.
we planned a SSVP meeting (though, truthfully we did none.)
and decided about a day in advance to walk to my house

it ended up as me, Mel, Tori, Warren, Tyne and Megan
walking
FOR OVER 2 HOURS!
yes, it seemed like forever.
"Are we there yet? Are we almost there? I LIKE WHINING!"
but we eventually got there
and i learned my lesson...
*shame*

first i tripped over this metal ring
that was probably a foot in diameter
so Lika picks it up and put is around her
then Tori somehow ended up finding someone's bumper on the side of the road
and unsuccessfully tried to break the license plate off
so she just carried it with her for a block or so

but we ordered pizza as we were walking
and the guy got there the same time as we did
so i had to run upstairs and get my money
though it was really expensive
even for five pizzas (i got my ass yelled at for this later).
plus, i only had one piece...

Then we played Wii
Super Smash Brothers, actually
and Tori pwnd all of us
I don't think I even won at all...
then we did the internet connection thing
and Warren and Mel fucked their partners over
and Tori's partner did literally nothing

so then I got guitar hero
cause it's like one of the only things I'm good at
videogaming-wise
and dominated
somehow Mel completely spazzed out when I started singing along
and killed herself
against Tori
then me and Warren played cooperative
and the second time we played the song
we got through the whole thing
and decided to kill ourselves
with two seconds left.

then everyone left
and
well
I wrote this
and fixed some stuff

PS:
the nav. menu is useable for now on
I'm only gonna add stuff if it's gonna be used.

JSYK

Just so you all know, don't try to use the menu under the picture right away, I still gotta work on it.

1: Oh, how it's been so long...

Actually, it hasn't really
but I really like my new template
I'm proud of it
and of myself
for actually starting to understand HTML
cause I'm too lazy to actually learn what every little thing does
so I'll just learn how to tweak certain stuff
...like the columns
it's not really that difficult for me
I've always seemed to be a quick learner.

Also
I finally got sick of having to rebuy songs after my computer loses the files
so I'm burning CDs of my songs
only a few though
I have a lot
and I won't get them all today
for sure
but if anyone ever wants to borrow one, I'm cool with it.

Friday's gonna be cool
we finally have a SSVP meeting set up
cause we've been working on it for how long now?
a few months?
not like I'm impacient
or anything
I've just been waiting for this.

Don't call me pretentious

'ey
I bet you could tell already
but I decided that I wanted a new layout
...
well, that's only part of it
I felt like seeing if I could live without one
and for 5 lonely minutes, my blog was white and had no left column...

Now, it's cool and black

and something a little less noticeable
I made my columns wider
cause with my new template
it wouldn't fit everything in on the sides
also, while I was at it
I made the middle a little bigger

I also added a quote of the day thing
It was originally going to be stuff from the featuring section
then I just thought "isn't that a bit redundant?"
so I'm making it song quotes!
cause those are some of the greatest ones.

now I have both Miranda AND Elizabeth hooked on Egyptian Rat Screw
IT REALLY IS FUN, PEOPLE!
but now they're getting better reaction time
so I'm losing more...
*cries*
nah, I'm kidding
it's fine.

AND
FINALLY!
YES, FINALLY!
we're gonna have a SSVP meeting!
and we're all gonna have to try our damndest to stay on track enough to get something productive done.
But in all seriousness, ten kids from the age of maybe eleven to fifteen should be able to make progress when they put their minds to it.

14: She knows this isn't how he paid the bills before...

Well, first off
sorry
I guess...
I really didn't want to go onto the computer this weekend
'cause
I just didn't feel like it.
But I'll go over my weekend for you

Let's see
Saturday.
It was really gross and rainy out
so softball was canceled
and I watched more of my DVRed stuff
Later I went to Pepino's
with my aunt and baby cousin, grandparents, another aunt, and my immediate family (dad, mom, and Leanne)
cause my aunt and cousin are some of my relatives from South Carolina
and were leaving
*thinks*
today probably

Sunday
was basically centered around mly meeting
I spent all morning packing
and trying to keep everything neat
and soon after I got there
I HAD TO TAKE EVERYTHING OUT AND PUT IT BACK IN AGAIN
so it ended up as a mess
and I broke my alpine horn (which was actually the thinnest and longest stick I've ever seen and I was surprised that some people DIDN'T break theirs') so I didn't get a Hershey's bar
my mom yelled at me 'cause I yelled at my sister
...but I don't think I really did much when I got home

Today
Tori got a recording of Melissa's "I was crazy once. They locked me in a room. A rubber room. With rats. Rubber rats. They drove me crazy" thing.
As I promised
I taught Miranda how to play Egyptian Rat Screw today during study hall
and kicked her ass each time
(she didn't get the concept of slaping for cards)
Also
I finally got Courtney's birthday present ready
cause her birthday is wednesday

...speaking of birthdays
I'm considering going on strike against giving people presents
cause no one
LITERALLY NO ONE
got me anything this year
or even for Christmas
and I consider the presents I give others of decent quality
I know I'm one of the people who remembers most things that I consider "important", and under that category is birthdays.
so my question here is:
WHAT GIVES?!?!?
...
sorry
but I'm getting kind of sick of it.

OH OH OH!
Before I forget
I felt like telling you
'cause I think you should know
I'm probably going to get a summer job
...I need money...
and
I think it'll probably be at the Schwabenhof (sorry for the spelling)
my aunt's friend works there
and she said they need people to bus
plus, it's only a few minutes away from my house.
so, I don't know.

I think I'm done for today
"have a stupendous monday!"
*sorry I'm just sick of the woman who does the announcements each day and says cheesy stuff like that*

10: She's steam - laughing on the windowpane

now
now I'm at episode
uhhhh
46


this was one of the more boring days
though
Tori decided for sure that she wants to go to the Panic concert.
my mom's not too thrilled that it's at the rave though...
"It's in the same part of town as the hookers and drug-dealers!"
and Sky
always thinkin she's so funny
her point of view is a bit different
"ha I bet they're all gonna go without you and you'll be stuck at home watching Barney!"


...
What a waste of a perfectly good post (sorry it's a bit late)

*side note*
Thanks to Skylar for helping with the title!

P.S. yes, people actually do help me pick out my post titles, but it's not like I'm forcing them to, and it's not really like they know that they're doing it anyway.

6: Well that all depends on what you qualify as friends...

¡Oye!
Hola
uhhhh
hoy
Llueve y hace fresco
mucho llueve
QUE HORIBLE

"cold rain, cold rain."

ey, Tyler?
how's the whole pissing me off thing going?
so you know
and I know you won't read this
but it's working
I'm just too stubborn to say so
'cause then it pisses YOU off (SO THERE)

I got my hair cut
it's a lot shorter than it has been in a while.
to my shoulders-ish
but
at least I know now
that she really wouldn't care if I colored my hair
or got a streak ^.^
that was always something I wanted to do...
most likely red

but
it all depends on what the people to people rules are
cause they don't want people to have
"unnatural hair colors"
they think it makes americans look bad
...
to that
I say "bullshit"
plus there's always the option of lowlighting it

also
Leanne swears that she saw Tori at the ortho today
is it true?
who the hell knows.

ep-i-sode 40.
and Kabuto and Kakashi are hot.
just had to put that out there
"I DON'T CARE IF KABUTO IS EVIL!"

2: You could 'cause you can, so you do.

nothing
nothing
nothing
nothing happens ever
and today
today was just the same
"well, I told Chudy that I'd piss you off."
We all get it, Tyler.
You're quite an annoying little bastard.

I just got back from babysitting
You'd be surprised how much little kids seem to grow in a few months.
Like geez
Last time I watched her
I had to get her snacks (now she can get them herself)
I had to help her go to the bathroom (she can also do this herself)
and now
now she's going to school?
I feel old...

Yet again
My father has failed to order my contacts
the cool colored ones
XP
fuck him
I told him to hours ago
AND HE STILL FAILS!
That's right, father
you fail at life.

EPISODE 36!

oh
and
My current japanese name is Kishou Joumae
it means
um
"rising lock"
but it sounds cool, doesn't it?
Thats the thing about japanese
it makes everything sound cooler.

7: Tripping eyes and flooded lungs, northern downpour sends its love.

Yesterday
well, I don't even know
how to begin
well, all it was was a random chatroom
with some people from Pennsylvania
but that could have been expected
with a name like "yourmom"

Jessie finally got what BOW is
Warren talked to himself
Tori somehow got Aron to join (and was Rick Rolld)
and I was confused most of the time

...
and my sister and her friend keep fucking around in the other room
i'm getting aggravated.

OH YEAH
I'm on almost episode 30 now
so much for it taking forever, Tori
190 to go!

Melissa, my name is Amatsu Yotogi, deal.

lastly
*don't tell my parents*
but
I broke the camera today
at school
dropped it
and i lost a part
...
i wasn't even supposed to have it with me in the first place
so
that's something i need to work on telling them.

I know not your sorrow, but I know mine. Just say you'll stay and dance with me tonight.

Today I had my bowling thing with the P2P people

this seventh grader on my lane started giving people names
depending on the first letter
somehow I ended up with the name Dilorian (sorry for the spelling, that was actually how it was.)
and now Nic (the seventh grader) doesn't even know my name
and swears he'll call me that (Dilorian) for the rest of the trip
but amazingly
it doesn't bug me
I mean, it could be worse
"Kacchow!"
"Cman!"

like how he sang the horny song
and how a few of us were guessing what one of the pizes in the bags were
most of us came up witha dildo
but Nic said condom
cause
"I know girls. if girls are going to bother to take the time to do something like that, wouldn't they want it to be more pleasureable?"
but my arguement was
"condoms are little packages. this is a box. how do those two things seem similar?"

and remembering condoms
me and Kaitlyn were laughing
remembering last trip
with the whole
"condo in Tampa" thing
...
it's a long story.
trust me.
I SAID TRUST ME.
THAT DOESN'T MEAN ASK ABOUT IT.
... though really, I don't care
It's a kind of funny though.

Ah. Would you be so kind as to direct me to the nearest bubbler?

I always dreamt of doing that to someone from out of state.
I know people who did that.
Heard it's good fun ^.^

But anyway, today we had our first softball practice for the year.
it was just me and the 7th graders.
my prediction?
THIS YEAR WILL SUCK
even though I love softball.
You haven't seen my team.

And later, I helped my dad
cause he's changing the fan in me and my sister's bathroom
and he found a bird nest in the duct
"Damn crap."

And the english version of Naruto on YouTube only go up to episode 14
so I tried to find them somewhere else online
THERE ARE 220 FUCKING EPISODES
....THIS WILL TAKE FOREVER!

13: I don't love you, I'm just passing the time.

Know how people all seem to have idols?
Someone who they aspire to be like?
You may or may not know this already
but Alex Gaskarth is my idol
Damn do I look up to that boy.

I found some of the best videos of him on YouTube



and he's a really really REALLY talented singer
I would basically die to go to an All Time Low concert.
cause I heard the live stuff
it's as amazing as the stuff on their albums.
you should check them out.

Oh and
I've decided
I'm gonna try to watch Naruto
To see what Melissa likes so much about it.
I'm on the first episode
Though I remember seeing it before
somewhere...
probably on TV

...that's all for now.
TO YOUTUBE!

*BONUS TITLE* I could have learned so much from you, but what's left now?

Well, I'm busy so you don't get a real post today.

Enjoy:

4: I know it's mad but if I go to hell will you come with me or just leave?

Gah.
I've been really happy for no reason lately
Like I just wanna hug someone.
...
I know what you're thinking.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU ON, DEANNA?"
"YOU LESBIAN!"
"DON'T TOUCH ME!"

so i'm stuck hugging people in my head.
... I'm not much of a hug person, anyway.
*sniff*

But
and you may know this
or not
but
my mom's whole side of the family
is crazy
literally
so, don't be surprised if I how symptoms anytime soon.

OH AND
I GET TO GO BOWLING WITH MY AMAZING P2P PEEPS ON SUNDAY
AND I WILL KICK MAJOR ASS
*like Tori when we went as a group that friday*

but
I'm still working on my project.
I HATE OREGON.
IT SUCKS
ASS
XXXXX
but
at least it was a partner project
though Melodie stuck me with too much
and now I have 3 huge things to finish.
...
I should get to work
Later.

*side note*
Thanks to Tori for helping pick out the post title!

11: These watermelon smiles just can't ripen underwater

Soooooooooo
It's tuesday
Technically
it's tuesdaytuesday
somehow Kurt started saying that after I told him tuesdays are amazing
and I say it sometimes now too...

But on a lighter note
my new blog title was an unintentional reference.
Betcha can't figure out from where...
...
...
I know you don't know
cause you all suck
and don't listen to the same music as me all the time.

BUT I LIKE HAVING MY BAND
THAT NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW OF
AND ARE AMAZING

Especially *giving it away*
when
it
has
to
do
with
...
ALEX!!!
^.^
cause he's hot.

oh
and
if you didn't notice yet
I added the SSVP basic stuff on my page
on the right

it's easier than sending and resending everyone stuff.

Nothing (yet again) happened today
except I had my first lession in quite a while
added maybe 3 quotes
and talked.
that's all.