I never said I was the best thing for you

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand
my grades still arent posted yet
>.<
oh, did i mention?
its already midterm time
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK MIDTERMS!
well, for spanish
i actually aced it
again
=D
i own at spanish
maybe its my knack for remembering things that most people find completely useless/pointless
i guess it helps me here
hooray for random talents!
my other grades werent posted, though
and that was english and science
my two hardest tests, in my opinions
i mean, monday i have gym (easy, just listening to my ipod and walking the whole hour and a half), band (memorizing stuff and playing the rest of the time), and history (not easy, but i dont give a shit about history. im not gonna use it. ever.)
tuesday theres study hall (code for Guitar Hero the whole hour) and math (which has always been easy for me)
oh, and btw
i didnt study
at all
ever
no matter what anyone may tell you
i mean, it doesnt help
if anything, it just confuses me more
...and this is another time that my half-working memory helps me ever

OH
and if anyone asks
me and Jessie have been going out
for a few months now
because those fucking idiots from my gym class found me
AGAIN
its not the first time
i mean, once at Uno's was enough of a coincidence for me
now i just think theyre stalking me for fun
well, i fucking swear to god
they find me again
im gonna scream
and you guys'll be the first to know about it
dont you worry.
thank GOD for the end of semester
though i dont get to see Holly and Katie as much anymore...
i mean, Holly i see in the morning
and she said she'd sit with us if she ended up in our lunch hour somehow
and katie's locker is close to mine
but they made gym bearable, to say the least
now who am i gonna have to break into random song and dance with during 4th hour?
NO ONE, I TELL YOU!
unless my history class is somehow awesome
i doubt it, though.
=/

uhh
so what else?
oh
im teaching myself how to play "Three Cheers For Five Years" on the piano
in the original key
because i dont give a shit how difficult the rest of you find it, i like how it sounds better that way.
and im not too bad
i can almost sing and play at the same time
even though i cant sing for my life....
but someone has to!
me and tori together would have to cover the three parts on our own
i mean, i already had to put one of (and during the song, the most prominient) the parts to warren just so it'd be covered
dont get me wrong, itd sound awesome on bassoon
but sometimes i wish we'd be able to cover more parts in songs without forcing tori to piano every single time
i guess we'll just have to play with the hand we're dealt.
it could be worse....

thats also one of the reasons i want to learn more instruments
not only the fact that i love music
and that im considering it for a possible career path in the future
but it'd also take some of the stress from limiting what we can do as musicians
...its too late for me to be explaining this stuff so in-depth
what im trying to say is, that i dont know what im trying to say
the end

my life is just moving too fast
it seems like it was just a few weeks ago that i was starting highschool
now im 1/8 of the way done!
i just started to become okay with people!
life doesnt seem fair most of the time
i have to idea what im doing with my life
my indecisiveness is excruciatingly painful sometimes, you know?
god, i have a headache now
i just dont fucking know
i dont

im starting to believe a little more in astrology
i know those horoscopes in magazines are a bunch of bull most of the time
but the whole "your personality is somewhat affected by your birthday"
it seems to make some sense
i can kinda tell what time of the year people are born by talking to them
like this person i met in 7th grade
i talked to them for a while, and i just had this sort of feeling like they had to be born just around the same time as me (march-ish)
so i figure out last year
5 fucking days younger than me
crazy
dont know how that happened, but it did
id like to think that im more oberservative than most people
i remember most conversations that have no significance ever to most people
dunno
maybe its just that that makes me unique?
or maybe ive just set my hopes for myself too high....

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"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

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A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?