In case I haven't, I love you Melissa.
=D
So, I was just kinda sitting around and felt like reading her blog.
Then I quoted it once.
So she decides to look up her name and start quoting all this stuff I said year(s?) ago.
And I totally don't remember saying any of that.
Even without hitting my face on the concrete...(most definitely a story for another day)
But it's kinda like, where did my awesomeness go?
I don't talk like that anymore.
And I kinda miss that.
You know, the days back when I could say "Oh, I didn't use capitalization or an apostrophe? Fuck it, I don't care."
Now it's more of "AHHHHH CRAP I FORGOT THERE ARE NO As IN DEFINITE!!!! GAHHH OMFG IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD!"
Ah, sometimes I wish I could go back in time.
There are so many things I miss.
Like, 8th grade band.
Or 7th grade in general.
Or back when we would all just go to Village Park after school and sit on the swings.
Or the Dollar Store raids where we would end up with $15 of junk each and think it was totally worth it.
Or when we used to play our instruments together for the hell of it.
Or the Kitty Notebook.
Or Rockband Parties.
Or last Homecoming.
Or the stupid seatbelt joke.
Or Australia.
Or adventures. (This is probably the single worst thing about everyone getting their driver's licenses.)
Or the last day of school.
Or last year's Summerfest.
Or Target.
Or biking to the movies. ("Wow, your pants are really tight!" "....")
Or having random chatrooms that always turned out to be the highlight of my week.
Or arranging songs that I had convinced myself that we would play together someday.
Or the grassy knoll.
Or New Years.
Or "Say no to blowjobs!"
Or the Bop-It.
Or all the movies we saw together.
Or the state game (Especially the bus ride there: "Holy shit, we picked the lucky bus! We just got through the railroad crossing when it was going down, and the last few lights!")
Or Falls Fest.
Or the trivia contest.
Or playing for Tori's church.
Or Heroes parties.
Or HYH.
Or jam-sessions.
Or eating ramen at 2 in the morning.
Or that one day everyone showed up at my house and we started playing Rockband.
Or baking that cake for Sam, then realizing it would be too far to walk it to him and going to Aron's instead. (Looking back on it, I think we made the right decision)
Or that one day we all went to the Majestic.
Or when I was obsessed with Panic! At The Disco and Fall Out Boy.
Or the day after Christmas.
Or Brookfield Square.
Or that day Jessie brought me McDonalds for breakfast.
Or plastic-wrapping Hemant and Warrens' cars.
Or Marco and Warco.
Or last Halloween.
Or back when we were all fine without being in relationships.
Or "How was Quinten/Clark last night?"
Or Minnesota.
I look back on all those things and wonder:
"In a few years, will I wish I could go back to now?"
I don't think so.
It's kind of sad, but I feel it's true.
I just don't know what's happened to me, but I miss the old days, the old me, the old us.
I want them back.
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"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."
*insert some sort of smiley face here*
*insert witty comment here*
*some more smiley faces*
*maybe a few song lyrics*
*repeat until satisfied or signature is insanely long and people start complaining*
A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?
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