Homework/Europe

Yup. I'm writing back pretty soon. Mainly because I find this Language Arts homework pointless (it also doesn't help that I completely bomb at writing...) I have decided that I suffer from some sort of chronic writer's block that ails me even during everyday confrontations.

That's why I can never make random outbursts.
That's why I can't hold a normal conversation for more than a few minutes.
That's why many people at school hate me.
That's why I get harassed.
That's why I feel like I fit in almost nowhere.
That's also why I'm lucky that I got my grade up to a A- in Language.
I'd go on, but this thought is becoming depressing fast.

I've also realized that my memory sucks too...

Sooooo,
My project is some pamphlet on homosexuality. *yawn*
I can't even figure out how I want to format it.
I don't even know what to include, and I have the rubric sitting right next to me on the desk.
THIS BLOWS!

More on my writer's block, I always have to edit my posts. It gets really old fast.
How can I live with extreme indecision disorder? GAHHHH!

Along with that,I have to go to this meeting to go to Europe. Yes, Europe. Wonderful, isn't it?
Not always.

Well, it's a hell of a lot of work to get everything packed. I don't even know what all I have to do to get ready. I have to learn about politics in like 3 months, and at least basic French, German, Italian, maybe more. I'm almost regretting my choice to take Spanish, I think I'm going to pick up German in my sophomore year.
I think I have about two more meetings before I leave. It's a bit stressful to say the least.

But I went on a different trip in 2006 with these same people, so I know that I'm not going to disappear while we're hanging out on the Eiffel Tower or in the Louvre or anything like that. So that's reassuring to say the least.
I've also met two of the people before I went to the first meeting.

The first was Amanda Bradley.

Some people reading this may or may not know her. She's a 7th grader at T.J., and I think I've known her since I was in first grade, when she was in Leanne's girl scout troop, and our families have been okay since then. Like, when our parents play poker, I hang out with her little brother and sister when she's with my sister, and I'm okay with that. I normally play babysitter for Leanne's friends little siblings. And somehow they look up to me like I'm some sort of good person.

I guess I'm just good with kids.

The second is Katelynn Burgardt.

We met during the trip from 2006. She wasn't the person I was closest to at all, but I didn't completely hate her and we talked a few times. So it's a positive.

Most of the people going on this trip either know people through school or never met the other people at all. I'm lucky to be part of the first group. We also got to meet the people we are going with last time. It's not like we have nothing in common, and the best part is: I think most of them are in band! YAY!
There are all these postives and everything, but there's a HUGE negative:
I BARELY GET TO TALK TO PEOPLE FOR 3 WEEKS! I mean, sure, we get internet access at some of the hotels, and we can call home sometimes, but you never know when people are at home or anything and I hate leaving messages on answering machines. It just feels so impersonal.
Plus, I hate talking on the phone to most people (Melissa is pretty much the exception.) It's sort of like a fear of mine, along with the dark, thunderstorms, and country music (kidding about the last one, but I really don't like it).

That's all for now. I'm going to my meeting.