And there was no sunlight

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nothing like kicking a person when they're down, eh?
"oh sorry, we're only going until 7:30 today"
bull fucking shit
I don't buy that
I put off my plans because I seriously thought there was going to be practice today
I really just want to say,
"oh! you all got me!
real fucking funny
you really suck at lying, all of you
you might as well have said
"'oh, hell. we decided we don't fucking need you.'"
I mean, calling from Jason's phone?
couldn't have made it much more obvious that it was just a lie
and, then, even
it's wasn't my fault it went so short anyway if we were only going to be there for 2 hours or whatever
if you weren't trying to be selfish, you would've remembered that
instead of "needing extra practice"
and I even bet that after that, everyone went to the band concert without me too
whatever
i really don't want to hear it
liars always pissed me off.

and the kicking someone when they're down part?
yeah
none of you would fucking get it
but one of my friends who I haven't been really close to for a while
something horrible happened to someone in her family
but none of you would care, huh?
I've been crying almost all day today because of it
my heart has literally been hurting because of how bad it was
and i promised not to talk about it with anyone
but it hurt like hell to keep it in
i ended up telling my mom
obviously, she didn't really get it
it'd be difficult
i still don't really believe it
but i guess i feel a little better about it
hardly
I was sitting in my room a little after I got home
and i was thinking (and still crying, a little)
I don't really know if I have anyone who would do what I've been doing for me if I were in that situation
I just really don't.
It made me consider different decisions I've been making lately
Many haven't been great
at all
I've never been great with decisions.
I'm going to work on that.
Starting with my priorities.

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"If I had a choice between you and me, I'd gladly choose you."

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A poem of sorrow
While writing it, would you dance with me?